Ejector Seat Uninstalled

There aren't many things that are stressing me out lately. I have anxiety, and some things have got me super frustrated lately, but not really stress. I've been in far more stressful jobs than my current one, and besides, this job is one I absolutely adore. God has allowed for me to find something I love, and I am so grateful for it. My current anxiety is mainly centered around new experiences and new responsibilities at work, and are largely just a normal part of my life with Aspergers (an autosm spectrum disorder). My frustrations however are people-related. See, I am an avid musician - I've been playing music since i was tiny and it is one of my absolute passions. I'm part of the church's worship team, and I feel i can bring a lot to the table since i play a lot of instruments. But for some reason the 'leader' doesn't seem to see it that way. She thinks that my being versatile means I'm not particularly good at any one instrument but rather tha...

I've always stood out from the crowd. Its not something i can help, trust me. I am 25 years old and barely 4'8. A chubby, nerdy, autistic, christian tomboy with an overenthusiasm for most things and a foe in the form of constant and unwarrented anxiety. I have too many life experiences for anyone of my age to handle, even for someone without an autism spectrum disorder and a constantly cluttered mind. All I've been through has made me who i am, but boy am i glad to finally be in an okay space! There are so many topics i have to cover on this blog, and i sincerely hope i get to all of them. I know i feel I'm writing in the hopes i can help you out, but i also know that this will (hopefully) help me too. Booster seats give you a better view of the world - its the way some people grow up. Slowly, protected. Making mistakes but atill having someone there to unbuckle you at the end of the ride. Ejector seats are an entirely different story. See, they dont help you see th...

Honestly, I don't know why I'm trying this whole blogging things again. Maybe there's a part of me that still wants to believe that someone out there will get something out of my ramblings? So what am I hoping to do differently? Stucking with it would be a start. In all aforementioned honesty, I just want to not quit something that i actually do want to do. Lets wait and see